Darkschunt

Shop Music: The Prodigy "Mindfields"
Burning: Witch's Blood Candles
Weather: Warm in the day, Chilly in the night

Happy Hari Merdeka for Malaysia! The land where I spilt much blood. (Tanah Tumpah Darahku!)

Was watching Resident Evil for the second time today...I am now refilled with grrl power and the longing to kick ass and to own Milla Jovovich's red outfit and black boots...
Slept excessively last night...had a dream...I can't remember much but I remember I was reading a really good book called Thirteen or Zhag Zhag Zhag Zhag...lol...
Which is probably just a reminder to me of how I'm seriously lacking in good books to read now...damnit, when is angus & robertson gonna come through with my book order??? Is my book coming by plane, ship, or giant sea tortoise?
But actually, it's a good thing they haven't since I'm not suppose to be spending money now.
All right, must run now. Farewell!

(0) comments

Shop Music: Alisha's Attic "Indestructible."
Sky Lantern: Full Moon, the beginning of the Hungry Ghost Festival!
Burning: Dusk Vienna Candle, Dusk Strawberry and Cream Candle, Dusk Moroccan Candle.
I feel like a sakura which has passed its prime...I was at my glorious peak but after last week, I have gone over the hill and now I am floating down from my branch to the ground, where someone will step on me.
SOB. I don't want to be twenty years old!!!
Today I attended a case in the Criminal Court. It was pretty cool... but after a while the case just dragged on and I got really bored. That, combined with my lack of sleep last night, I was just about ready to drop off to sleep. They kept on going over the same points again and again. I don't think I'd make a very good lawyer because I'd probably nod off to sleep while the prosecutor or whoever is making his case. Yawn. I think the jury looked pretty bored as well.
Today was finally warm after this weekend which was sooo freezing cold. Sunshine all around. Hooray!
Oh, and big news. Marcus came by the other night!!!!!!! Yep, somebody finally emerged from his Grand Europe Tour to pay someone else a birthday visit. Only he came too late. Bastard. Only someone like him with all the time in the world would come too late.
It was pretty sad as we sat outside and looked at the stars. "The Hungry Ghost Festival is here," I remarked, looking at the moon.
He looked up at the moon as well. "Yeah. All the spirits of the dead come out, huh?"
I laughed. "To walk with the living and the undead?"
He didn't laugh. "I'm sorry about coming too late," he said.
I waved a hand in the air. "Forget it." It was then I came up with my sakura theory. "It was probably meant to be anyway."
"You're not really twenty anyway," he comforted me.
I snorted. "I'm twenty in this life."
"Would you have agreed anyway?"
I paused. I still wondered over that. Maybe, in a way, it was a relief that he had come too late, that I had no need to make that decision. "I don't know," I said at last. "But I don't think I was meant to decide. It's destiny."
It was pretty depressing. Before the night was over, he had gone, and we had made plans to meet again at the end of this year. I don't know where he's going. I don't know where I'm going in life myself.

(0) comments

Well...celebrated my birthday last night with baccardi, jack daniels, johnny walker and a whole lot of other miscellaneous bottles and all my friends...
I never thought I'd have a proper celebration and all this year but it turned out to be pretty big...
I think i got kind of drunk and did all sorts of things which I don't remember...
And when my friends tell me about them, I'd rather not remember...
I've just realized how many friends I've made since I came here at the beginning of the year...which is nice...I never thought I had so many friends until now...
And when I finally woke up and recovered from my hangover, I was unwrapping presents...everyone knew what to buy for me - red candles, red candle holders, red earrings :D and I was reading all the birthday card messages and I just felt so touched...
Lots of things happening last night...some people were seriously flirting with others, i heard, and others were sitting in the corner just observing everything...lol...s doesn't drink so i got her soft drinks and she sits in the corner with k and watches everything so she could fill me in on what I forgot the next day...
Well, that's pretty much it. So I'm 20 and it kind of sucks to be this age which I never wanted to be and I have this sense of directionless because I only ever lived to be, at the oldest, nineteen.
So what now?
That's what I ask as I sit here in my dark room with my candles burning. One of the candleholders, given to me by s and k, which looks like a gazebo covered with a curtain of red beads, is sending up starburst patterns over the ceiling and reminds me of the old times when we had ceremonial burnings and witch dances.
Only time will tell...


(0) comments

Just finished my newsarticles! Hooray! Now all I have to do is dash over to the newsroom and print them out and staple them and put them in the in-trays...and I'm done! Yay! And there's still two more hours before deadline!
I would be dashing over to uni right now but it's raining and I'm waiting for it to stop first.
I keep thinking about my birthday coming up. Two more days! It's too soon! Nooo! I feel like I've reached a threshold where there's a leafy green arch which I will soon be stepping over no matter how much I don't want to...and I would be leaving my beautiful forest with all its safe wonderful magical dreams...and into a place where there are no more dreams...nooo! Stop! I don't want to! I'm only reminded of L.M. Montgomer's Magic for Marigold where the protagonist is forced to leave her world of dreams and Sylvia in the Orchard for cold hard reality and how she cried when she realized she could never go back to it...that that old magic would never be there for her again once she had left it... and I feel the same way. Stop this aging process right now!!!
I'm considering Marcus's proposal right now...I might even take it if he was here and not in Europe...in my current state of mind...but he said he would come on my birthday and ask me again...
Would I have to leave him by Wednesday? It's true that things would never be the same. But they were never the same since...
But we're meant to grow old and he was meant to be young forever...Which is the fate for which we are really meant?
I just want to be young forever...

(0) comments

Just taking a break from writing...two news articles due tomorrow! Plus some last-minute interviews to conduct tomorrow morning! I am so cutting it close...I know I should have done them over the weekend but I've been either partying or sleeping since Friday night until today. I know, I know, bad, bad, BAD girl! My feet are totally aching - dancing all night every night in high-heeled boots is so NOT good for you. I'm wearing sneakers and sandals for the rest of this week...erm, until Wednesday night anyway, cause that night is B-Day/DoomsDay and I plan to celebrate every night until the weekend is through. It's a good thing the week after is holiday week so I can at least get some rest!
Watched two movies which I had been dying to get my hands on for ages - Bend it Like Beckham and Queen of the Damned. Aaliyah! She looked way cool in Queen of the Damned. I miss her! And Stuart Townsend! Especially in that scene where he's all dressed up as her consort in that black velvet skirt-pants with a silver band around his neck and wrists and topless...mmm...
This weekend has been total eye-candy for me. Watching Jonathan Rhys-Meyers and Stuart Townsend onscreen, checking out my friend's hot friends, this really cute - and hard-working! - bartender at Geisha, the hot bods of the dancers at Metro - especially this one black guy who was like WOW! - and cute guys at the restaurant today where I got take-out for lunch and the cashier at the convenience store in the city...they're all coming out of the woodwork, like finally! I need to have more weekends like this.
Okay, must go back to my newsarticles...or else I'll never get enough sleep tonight!

(0) comments

Well, I am done with all my interviews! Hooray! Except for one more which I am finishing up on Monday which leaves me precariously close to my deadline but I can't do anything about it and my philosophy is "just go with the flow, don't look back, and have no regrets!" Well, that and more! Yes! So all I have to do now is write my first article, a second draft of my second article, call up WA Farmers Association on Monday after my tutorial, get my interview, finish up my second article, PRAY that I will be able to get that interview on Monday because if not i am so DEAD MEAT, and then write up my second article, go to my lectures, RUN to the newsroom after my lectures, print them out, hand them in, and then get ready for my next MURDEROUS CHALLENGE OF ALL JOURNALIST STUDENTS!!!
Latest news - last night America beat Australia 89-79 in basketball!!! I cheered for the Dream Team while wearing my Wildcats trackies...ahahahaha....so that I could be NEUTRAL. Poor America...they're not having it easy as they used to...
Hmmm...what should I do tonight? Should I go drinking? But I have to wake up early tomorrow! Should I just drink on Saturday? Or both? Or right now? Hooray for the weekend!!!
I am SO hyper, I don't know why, I just know I am.

(0) comments

I’m just writing this while I’m chained to my desk today waiting for phone calls and trying to call people every fifteen minutes for interviews and will be posting this when I finally entangle myself from the phone cord which I am trying to hang myself from at this moment. Really, this reporter business can really suck sometimes. Yes, it’s pretty fun that you get to talk to different people and it’s really cute how both guys that I talk to today laugh in that shy, embarrassed, pleased kind of way when I ask them for their pictures – like, oh my God! You’re actually happy and embarrassed at the same time. That is SO sweet. It’s just so damn sweet that I actually hope that my stories get run in the paper so they can actually get their pictures in there. Even though that is highly doubtful. And even though I haven’t seen how they look like yet, and everyone who knows me know how highly aversive of ugly people I can be. And YES I have looked in the mirror!!!!!!!!!!
Speaking of ugly and beautiful, anyone saw Linda Evangelista (wow, her last name is actually in my computer spell-check. Now how freaky is that? And even freakier, how could I forget the spelling of a supermodel name, me the queen of know-it-all of all nineties supermodels?) in Sydney modeling clothes? Like, she actually looked happy wearing that puffy-sleeved shepherdess-like outfit. Now that’s what I call pure model class – being able to actually look poised and happy while wearing something like that.
But back to the reporter business. I find that I am actually HARASSING people for interviews. (In that nice, pleasant, courteous manner which they teach us all in journalism class). Yes, I actually FORCED myself out of bed at the unearthly hour of nine thirty in the morning today so I could stumble over to the phone on my desk and go harass people and I am not going to stop this harassing until five o’clock when they all finally stop work, or at least until I get all my interviews. I am living a nine-to-five payless job at my desk in my room. Now I don’t like harassing people. If I feel I’m bothering someone, I’d rather step away then be a pain in the arse. (At least, whenever I’m sober). But right now I AM sober and I am DESPERATE and I have a deadline at five o’clock on Monday and so I apologize to all the good people at WA’s Environment and Agriculture Departments but I have all these damn assignments and I can’t afford to fail my classes.
(That is, unless somebody bites me in the neck while I’m walking through the dark woods back home from uni like he promises to! Bitch! Where are you?)
Journalism. Bah. I only wanted to be a starving drunken poet in the gutter.
And you know what makes it worse? That I have TWO boxes of chocolates sitting in my room at the same time and since I can’t go anywhere and I have nothing else to do between phone calls (I can’t concentrate on anything else because I am just so worried about deadlines and stuff) that I end up stuffing myself with chocolates instead! They’re for a fundraiser so I just pop a couple of bucks in the bag and end up stuffing myself with all these things that are bad for you and that gives you pimples and goes right to your stomach and that you don’t even feel like eating but eat anyway because you are bored. No, you have to stop it!!! Bad girl! Bad girl! BAD GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!
And this fundraiser thing? Oh, yes, did I mention that it’s for a magazine which I am also working a payless job for? Oh, yes. Journalism is trying to wreck my life.
But other than that, it’s pretty okay, really. I mean, you get to meet people. You get to write. (Even if it’s often about stuff you don’t want to write about). And hey, it’s an experience in suffering, right? I’ll laugh at this years later when I’m sitting on top of my tombstone.
Bah. Why can’t I just be a socialite heiress and throw champagne parties and get high and have boytoys?

(0) comments

Puerto Rico has beaten USA 92-73!!!
Did you see the way Puerto Rico played???
Watching them makes me miss playing basketball! Not to mention watching it! Do you know how much it sucks to trade one country which never shows basketball games on TV for another country which also never shows basketball games on TV? And no cable for me as well? Yay for Olympics.

I'm not really suppose to be watching TV. I'm suppose to be working on all the assignments due by next week and I'm going crazy! I'm so not in the mood for work. I'm not even suppose to be doing this. Ten minutes max and I'm gone, I swear.
Listening to F.I.R.'s album right now. Their music is really great, there are songs that sound J-pop-ish, like Glay's songs, and some songs sound Korean-ish, with a blend of their own distinctive sound as well. This is the first Chinese band which I have ever really liked. Beyond doesn't count. They were before my time. They're like the Beatles.

Had strange dreams the other night about giant pregnant shrimps stuck to the underside of a bathroom basin and pregnant cockroaches running around. It was disgusting. And it was all mixed with some other dream about the end of the world and a guy who looked like Franz Lizst dressed in a Stars-and-Stripes patterned Abraham Lincoln-ish outfit proclaiming the end of the world. And there was lightning and a lot of strange things and I had to save the world. And I was jogging through a field of blue and yellow buttercups. None of this makes sense, does it? But it did in my dream. I just can't remember all of it now.

All right, MUST go now. Tomorrow I have a full day of classes. If I can survive that - especially my last tutorial, which is being taught by a tutor whom I heard is one mean bitch - I think I may just survive the rest of the week. After that - just one tute on Wednesday and I'd be free! Er, as free as I can be with all these assignments and interviews coming up. Must dress professional-like tomorrow to impress my tiger-like tutors. Today I was all Japanese-cutesy-girl mix Fergie-from-Black-Eyed-Peas. Tomorrow, I will be Ms. Corporate Woman. Even though there is absolutely NOTHING corporate about me!

Damn! Why didn't I run away with Marcus to track down blood in Europe?
Why am I trying to pursue a normal life?
Why am I even asking myself these questions?
Two more minutes before midnight and a new day! Must get to work! Carpe diem!






(0) comments

So many things have happened since the last time i blogged....aaaargh...
First of all, after getting high with Carmen I ran all over our block disturbing various friends of friends, breaking JD bottles (damn! money gone!) and finally, locking myself out of my room so I had to spend the night freezing on the couch in the living room! And to make matters worse, that wasn't the only time I locked myself out of my room that weekend - I did it three times!!!! and a fourth time this week!!! all my flatmates are laughing at me. Remember when I said I was bored and wanted my flatmates to pay attention to me? Well...I think I may have gotten more than I bargained for...hahahah. But it's cool now. :D
Secondly! I went to Utopia with K and S and they've redone the whole place so it looks pretty cool. The night we went they were playing loads of music videos on the big screen in the main room and I saw a video featuring the band F.I.R. - their song "lydia". And the video featured shots of this Taiwanese TV series which had this absolutely HOT guy in it. Constance told me the guy's name is Kuo Ping Chao (???). I don't know if that's right but he is really HOT. I'm in love again! I can't stop playing the video now!
Thirdly! It's Friday the thirteenth today! I only just realized it! Is that why my hangover today is particularly baaaaad? I didn't drink that muuuuch. But i think it must be the stupid wine which I drank too fast, then followed up with hard licquor AND beer. Which is, as everyone knows, never a good combination, but I couldn't care less last night. Now I do. :p
Last night I went out with a bunch of friends to Morrison's bar, which is this pretty cool place which plays jazz music and serves food from the good old South of America. You know, like crabcakes and jambalaya and stuff. And we had wine and then we went to A's place and then we had more wine....and you know the rest.
Oh...Constance just told me that the guy's name is DYLAN. so he's Dylan Kuo Ping Chao? hahahaha....just call me Mrs. Kuo.
In about an hour's time Salina is going to pick me up to go shopping for Kelvin's birthday present and we're going to celebrate his birthday tonight! Even though his birthday is tomorrow! Which probably means that he is going to celebrate his true birthday with other friends the rat! And why do I have such a headache??? And why do I feel so baaad? Is it the food I ate or what? Gaaah. And I have so much homework to do and so many people to interview which I don't want to!!!


(0) comments

Oh...i'm going out after all...to the licquor store so that me and c can get some drinks and smokes and get drunk and high tonight. Looks like that's the highlight of my night tonight....


(0) comments

Shop Music: Matchbox 20 - Bright Lights
Burning: Dusk Vienna and Moroccan Candles
Weather: Windy

I am boooored...I wanna go out tonight but k is busy *trying* to be an athlete and s is going to wave lighters at some amateur concert while all my flatmates are so not paying any attention to me. I should start screaming in my room and see what they'll do.
It's so damn cold outside. I can't stand this weather anymore. I need some warmth. I'm dreaming of deserts and beaches.
DAMN! Am i not going out tonight?
I don't want to study anymore. I want to go traveling.
Sigh...waiting for the phone to ring.
I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



(0) comments